(Kpop group bts inspired us for this)
(y's part) 
 All of us were together. smiling. happy. Everything was okay back then.
But something happened. Something bad, damaging, like a curse.
Something which happens to make us fall apart. 
Let's BEGIN the journey.

                                                                                      #1 Begin2

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Sadness.  it started... with all of us falling apart. First one to realize. In a dark room. Fear dropped inside the brain. Darkness was growing while the tears were falling down. Tears make ponds, lakes, Oceans; enough to take all the breath away from the weak body. 
"When I was fifteen years old, I had nothing. The world was too big and I was small. " 
Before me. Was a portrait of my dear friend and... Bleeding from the face with something that was not blood. my Legs can't carry me anymore. Falling down on my knee's. With my tears. In this empty room, loud screams and sobbings can be felt...
...but can't be heard.
" Now I can’t even imagine now, I was scentless and completely empty... "
Hope, which already had left the brain was about to leave the heart. The fear was taking control. There was nothing left.  With the little power I had, I stood up and looked around. The little light coming from the melting portrait was helping me not to suffer from the  Nyctophobia I had. I walked next to the portrait and sit on my legs and opened my hands.
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"...I pray... Love you, my brother, I’ve got brothers discovered emotions, I became me, So I'm me... Now...I'm...Me..." 
Tears started falling unconsciously. Loneliness started rising again. The reason I am, was them. I was nothing without them... Sadness, fear, loneliness began taking control over me. I remembered the way they helped me to survive, how their single smile brightened my day.
 "You make me begin."
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(t's part)
But others. it's different. for some, it's falling into a lie. Lying to yourself. to everyone. the feeling of guilt. but.
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when you lie, it always ends differently.
Sometimes you cant stop. sometimes you want to stop but can't. 
but you always fall into a lie.
either it's from others. or from yourself.
   (Lying is a spriral that never ends)                                         

                                                                          #2Lie

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" Tell me, With your sweet smile "
'I never knew a person could lie so much. it did not hurt. neither feels sad. honestly.  to cover up my sins, my sadness. my anger. all of my emotions.
...I lie. it seems am going insane. but am not. am I?  at this point. I don't know if I have feelings anymore. life is a spiral that I am at the end of...
"Tell me, Tell me like you’re whispering in my ear"
Hearing... I hear. voices. maybe am going insane. maybe... but. I miss them. we have been apart.. for a long time...
I have taken so many pills.. so many things happening. so many spirals...
" Don’t be like a prey, (Be) Smooth like a like a snake"
Have you thought about it? lying is so easy. you can almost never get caught. why is that? why is it so bad when you do something no one notices?
it's not like they will ever know if you don't tell them or they don't find out. Honestly. a lot of people lie without realizing what they are doing.
people who say they don't lie, what if that is a lie?. no one really knows if someone is lying. they can buy it for the truth.
"..I want to get away.."
I always thought. what if I did not lie to myself? what if I don't anymore?  is it bad to lie to yourself? what if I get away. even though lying is like a snake. holding you down. so you cant get away. once you lie. you can't stop.  but why did I lie to myself, again?
" Get away away away from me, Get away away from me "
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'It was because it was the only choice i gaSavmyself'ii'
Thinking while sliding down into the bathtub filled with water... Am drowning. drowning in my own lies. my pain.
Why did you leave me?. why did I leave you? will we ever be together again?
"Whoever it may be, save me, me 
Save me "
i'm being caught lying. by own self. I see my own lies. I left you didnt i? But please..
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Give me back my smile...
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"It continues even when I run away"
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Please
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               "I'm caught in a lie"
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(yassie turn again)
A mark of disgrace associated with a particular circumstance, quality, or person.
that's 'Stigma'.  the one thing. that will mark us.
And I don't think it will leave us. 

                                                  #3STIGMA

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" I’ve been hiding it." 
Emptiness, regret, things I am feeling. There was no point in running away. Escaping. The sound that filled my ears made me stop for a while. I smirked. Being thrown into a wall, getting hurt, losing it wasn't important. That regret feeling growing inside me. Left little holes of nothing. I need help. I need someone. I need them.
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" I tell you something. "
My voice echoed
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sometimes your first love is the best thing that can happen.
but has the best or worst scenarios.
like most say. first love is not always the best